Vanity, Vanity, all is Vanity,

Or should I say selfishness, selfishness, all is selfishness. . . . . eye for an eye . . . . . taking all of this out of context of course, but I feel like running with it.  I want to be justified in my hate right now.  My husband and I, after fighting with his ex and Child Support Services for quite some time, finally received notification by phone today that YES his ex has been paid  through his Social Security since 2007.  Then to top it off we found out that the amount has been $336 a month MORE than what she is allotted in child support by court.  That part isn’t actually what bothers me, it is that she hasn’t claimed receiving it and has had them take the allotted child support out of my husband’s disability checks!  To be quite frank it pisses me off.  I have the right to be mad too, and the right to express it.  I need to express it, that is only healthy!  What is wrong is that I want her to suffer.  She is very likely to lose custody of her son in the next couple of months to us, it is even possible that she will only get supervised visits.  IF that is what happens it is going to sting for her, she will be losing a GREAT deal of the income she has become dependent on that she is not entitled to.  She may even have to move back in with dear old mommy.   In the end I know that vengeance only hurts me in the long run, but it is a HUGE struggle to not be vengeful.